Tonight has been one of those nights spent looking for a quick fix to numerous problems.
I would love to say that I'm focused on, and trying to solve, the problems of others, of people close to me, but tonight it's much more selfish than that. I'm trying to put a band-aid on the things that are keeping me awake at night. The things that affect my life, whether it be directly or indirectly, that I have little to no control over, but feel as though they are slowly breaking my spirit nonetheless. This all sounds a tad dramatic, and I'm sure it legitimately is, but the joy of having my own blog is being able to indulge in my dramatic side from time to time. The saving grace in all of this is my knowledge that there is reality at the core of my drama.
So, tonight's band-aid has come in the form of conversation with an old friend over a shared quesadilla; the smooth warmth of tequila enjoyed in a couple of margaritas; and the quirky appeal of a Woody Allen movie.
It's just a quick fix, but I'll take it for tonight.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
1. My idea of pure perfection would be to be independently wealthy so I could travel any time I wanted to any destination my heart desired, and so I could give in to my inner nerd and be a professional student.
2. Love, in all of its forms, makes the world go 'round.
3. If it weren't for work and my upcoming apartment move, I'd hop a plane to Townsville to see Jamie.
4. Bloggers are truly wonderful people. I've met some lovely friends through blogging, and enjoy this little world I've become a part of.
5. If I had unlimited funds I'd buy you all a trip to your dream destination.
6. I'm glad it's Friday because it's been a stressful couple of weeks and I'm really looking forward to a break.
7. Something I'm excited about is Fall coming!! I know I keep getting reprimanded by you all for wishing away summer, but I am so antsy for a change in season. Summer this year has been nuts, and I'm ready to move on to cooler temperatures, changing leaves, a need for cardigans and lots of soup!
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
No joke, I've been awake since 3:12 am (MST). Yep, I'm crying a little inside as I think about that, and would gladly welcome tears of pity from my lovely readers. I kid...kind of.
Anyway, I opted to not take a sleeping pill last night because by 9 pm I was already getting sleepy, so it seemed unnecessary. When I could barely keep my eyes open at 10:30 I felt pretty confident in my decision. When I woke up at 3 am to use the bathroom I had a few concerns about how awake I felt. And when 4 am rolled around and I was nowhere near falling asleep, I knew I was screwed. So, I brushed my teeth and hair, brewed a pot of coffee, flipped on some old school Boy Meets World and finished the last 150 pages of my book. I made it to work more than on time, but now 5 hours later I'm exhausted. It's only 8:30 am...oh boy.
To help keep me going today I wore some extra fun earrings, lovingly made by my mother.
I wore cute, but comfortable clothes (I have 2 work meetings today, so I needed to be appropriately dressed).
I stopped for an extra hot, nonfat latte from my favorite coffeeshop.
I wore my favorite bracelets.
I'm keeping myself excitedly geared up for a get-together with a girlfriend tonight.
And I'm mentally patting myself on the back for having painted my nails candy apple red this past weekend. It makes me smile when I see the flash of color as I type this morning.
It's going to be a long day, but I'm trying to keep it positive!
What do you all do to keep your spirits up when your day stretches before you like an uninterrupted desert?
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
we searchers are ambitious only for life itself, for everything beautiful it can provide. most of all we love and want to be loved. we want to live in a relationship that will not impede our wandering, nor prevent our search, nor lock us in prison walls; that will take us for what little we have to give. we do not want to prove ourselves to another or compete for love.
found at Little Reminders of Love
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Hello, lovely blogging world.
You all know my trusty best friend, Jamie. You know, that lovely lady who lives in Australia and lets me come visit even if it takes me 6 months to get around to blogging about it. The one who drinks red wine with me and is always up for countless selfies and 2 am dance parties.
Well, she's going through a rough time right now and would greatly appreciate a quick prayer and/or happy and positive thoughts sent her way. I would really appreciate it, too.
Long distance friendships are tough, but they're even tougher when one of you is in the midst of a crappy time and you can't physically be there for her (or him). It rips at your heart a little bit.
So, if you have a moment, please direct some positive energy towards Queensland, Australia. Jamie and I will love you forever for it.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
While chatting with one of my Aussie friends this weekend, I found myself repeatedly reminding him that it was still summer in Colorado. He seemed to be convinced that summer is actually May through July, so obviously I must be mistaken.
"But," I said "it's only the beginning of August. Autumn is still a month away."
My argument didn't appear to be taking hold until I finally asked him if it was Spring yet in Sydney.
"Not quite yet; it's still a month away." Ah-hah!
Those silly Northern versus Southern hemisphere seasons sure can be confusing.
So, the point of this apparently random story?
Summer isn't over yet
...but, the practice for Autumn seems to be starting.
I woke up this morning completely and happily cocooned in my comforter. My nose was chilly from the cool air in my bedroom, and I found myself darting my hand out to hit the snooze button as quickly as possible, not wanting to expose it to the world outside of my blankets for longer than necessary. My morning shower was reminiscent of those on Autumn mornings: hotter than normal, leaving my skin bright and rosy. And coffee, which is always step one for me, no matter the season, seemed to ease me into waking up better than usual. The sky was grey, and the mountains were veiled in low-lying clouds on my drive to work. There was a hint of the sun in the sky, the promise of afternoon sunshine once the mist burned off, but in that moment, Colorado felt like Autumn.
I'm so ready for it.
ps- in Australia, a comforter is referred to as a doona...I don't know why, but I kind of love it.